Ithaca, NY, 1948
After a wrong turn in Albuquerque, I caught up with Bugs Bunny, alias Richard Feynman, somewhere near the ends of the earth. Up to my elbows in snow-drifts, I spied on the little window to his office, in which he seemed to be doing normal professor-things, plus wild gesticulations. I decided on a particularly frozen morning that I would have to risk visibility if I was to get answers, so I enrolled at Cornell, posing as a G.I. bill student. In Professor Feynman’s introductory physics lectures, I could see that there was something remarkable happening here. People researching physics is about as natural as fish studying water: it’s the very stuff we’re made of. He had a knack of getting down to the ground floor, asking the basic questions, just as much in a block sliding down a plane as in neutrinos.
His teaching assistant, a quirky bow-tied Brit by the name of Freeman Dyson, knew the man personally, so I inquired. “Oh, he’s working on something, yes. The trouble is he just won’t publish, no matter how much I cajole him. He says he’s depressed, but Dick depressed is just a little more cheerful than any other person exuberant. It’s the Bomb, I think, and of course Arlene, his poor wife who died in New Mexico. I probably shouldn’t be telling you this, but Dick and Arlene got married knowing she hadn’t long to live, she having T.B. Bit like Dick to give it a go anyway.”
“What do you suppose he’s up to?”
“Well, he’s got his own private quantum theory for starters. Quantum theory, that’s the theory of the atom and electrons. Until recently, no one’s been able to make it work with Einstein’s relativity; it’s riddled with infinities, you know. Schwinger’s done some remarkable work reconciling the two— all operator theory and renormalization, I’m still trying to understand it. Somehow, there’s a way to replace the infinities with experimental measurements, then the beast is well behaved and gives very nice results. Dick manages calculate the same thing with these funny little pictures, and he puts plus signs between them like they were real mathematical formulae. Quite a ball at conferences: squiggle plus squiggle equals whatever. I mean to pick his brain about it before he flies off to Brazil.”
“Brazil?!?”
“Yes, he’s taking a visiting professorship. Says he hates the cold.”
On my way home that evening, I saw a shadow linger on my doorstep, then dart away. I broke into a run to pursue it, but not a trace was left, not even footprints in the snow. With one exception, that is: crinkled under the door and sodden with melt-water was a little envelope. Inside was a note, which read,
“The killer is left-handed.
—an Insider”
